I dunno. I've been doing okay yet still, it's not fine. I'm still a stupid, dependent brat. I've been trying my best to do things well, but it's still not enough. I need to hang out with my friends more. I need to go out of the house without my parents. I need to get a life. All these time, I say it's okay as long as I make my loved ones happy, as long as I keep myself happy with material things. But no. I know I'm not happy. I just kept on pretending. I do things to divert this feeling somewhere else. But still I know deep inside I'm still lonely.

I need someone to help me feel happy. I need someone to help me feel I'm not alone. Like, for real. I know some people will make me feel happy and not alone. But there always come a time that they're not there for you, that they wouldn't understand. I want someone who would.

I don't wanna cry about this matter anymore. I'm tired of this 'I'm so freakin alone' drama that I always have on times that I feel I'm gonna have my period. Bullshit.

Now, if I want to make my human body to feel happy, I need to buy either of these:
- Lens adapter and conversion lenses for my S3 IS
or
- Brandon Boyd's From the Murks of The Sultry Abyss

Decisions decisions...


I want my cam to look like this!

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