Sound a little cheezy right? Well, just wondering... why is everyone having guy problems but me? I mean, everywhere i turn, i always hear fellow gals complaining about their boyfriends or their crushes...either their boyfriends has an attitude problem or maybe the guy they liked like another girl... i mean, i find it a little funny... why do they waste their precious time and tears over a guy? why couldnt they just fight the feeling and get over it!

well, maybe im saying such things because i havent really feel they way they are feeling. to be completely head over heels over a guy...to be in love...wow.

to be real, i really havent felt that weird feeling yet... maybe the last time i felt that is back in elementary school where i fight my best friend over a guy we both liked... i told her i love him...(total cheeseball moment!) but i know its just a one sided thinggy and its definitely not love. for the past years, i secretly admire guys in class, hoping to myself that someday...somehow, they will like me the way i do...but as much as do that, i just end up feeling hurted and disappointed because i gave myself false hopes...that's why little by little, i still like some guys but i try to imagine less about them or i even try not seeing their good qualities but their bad...i just dont want to be attracted anymore to them... and when im already at the point of admiting to myself that i have a crush on a person, i'll tell myself "He doesnt give a damn about you" and then i'll discover that he really doesnt give a damn about me....with that everything will just be forgotten and i will not hurt badly cause i didnt fall that deep yet...

yeah, that's my so-called "defense mechanism" when it comes to that...that's why right now, i dont know if guys see me as a tough, intimidating girl or a girl they could really feel something for... im still clueless...(?)

but even though im like this: Single Since Birth (hehehehe...), im still a happy, shiny girl! Why would i let these things bring me down? I still have a lot ahead of me. And maybe on my way ahead, i'll meet the right one...

...my Knight in Shining Armor.... =^_^=

"Romeo, Romeo! Where for art thou Romeo?" anyone wanna apply? Just kiddin'!