My summer now by far is the most difficult one to go through...

We dont have enough cash to buy some stuff... we got lots of stuff needed to be payed... lots of emergency spending, lots of 'vultures' lurking around every afternoon...plus add the fact that my mom will have her operation by the 24th this month... we're just so lucky we could make both ends meet...

But with all these stuff happening, i couldnt bring myself to complain. Well, maybe i do complain sometimes, but most of the time, i just complain to myself...

As i was browsing through Friendster and through the bulletin board messages, i saw a post a friend of mine made...its a survey about love and crap...and as i read her post i could tell she's a bit emotional for she's currently in a 'cool-off' state with her boyfriend... i find it a little bratty though. i find it bratty cause she thinks her issues are such a big deal for her to get all angsty and stuff...i could really feel her emotions which i think is...anger...for her boyfriend. i just couldnt belive that shit is already big deal to her...wait till she hears my issues in life...

I told you that story because i want my message to get across...

I mean, they consider love problems a big deal already? That's really funny...wait till they get to the real world...

At this age of mine, im not unaware of things happening around me anymore. I could see my parents having a tough time earning money so i could finish school, specially in our ecomonic situation nowadays...money sure aint easy to have...And as i see them like that, i could feel myself being problematic about stuff like that as well.

Now, Iam somewhat obliged to get a good and high paying job as soon as i finish school next year so that i could help my mom and dad...which i think, kids my age arent still setting their minds in at the moment... kids my age are still into love problems i think...

With those obligations given to me at an early time, I suddenly feel pressured or something... i mean, i should at least reach their expectations right? I want to reach their expectations...but getting there, i think, wouldnt be a walk in the park...

So for those whiny friends of mine who complain so much about their love lives, get a grip, you got far more serious issues to concentrate to....