well, same old shit, different day... that's always how things go for me... i go to school, attend my boring classes, have a couple of laughs with my friends, go home, eat, get some rest, go on-line then sleep... fun life isn't it?! ehehehehe...

not that im complaining though...i know that im experiencing nice things in life already but i think life has something more in store for me but i still havent got the chance to do it...i dont know, maybe because im such a wuss to try those stuff or maybe, the forces of nature are still not in the mood to give them to me... and one of those things is...you guessed it right...lurve! ehehehe...

im just wondering, why up until now, i still havent felt the thing they called AMORE...ehehehe... not even just the tinge of it! not even a teensy weensy of it from a significant other...well, not that i have a significant other...actually, i dont have one...ehehehe...

am doing fine even though i dont have someone special right next to me... but sometimes i wonder, how does it feel to love and be loved 'that' way... i guess it would be weird... i cant imagine myself going out with someone and be so madly in love... i just relly cant...i find it really fuckin' weird...seriously...well, unless its brandon boyd im imagining as my better half, i have no hard time doing that! haha!

i just find it hard imagining myself in a relationship in the very near future even though i sometimes wanted to...i dunno...i told you im weird... maybe its because there is no possible love interest in sight... yeah... that's right...i ran out of crushes... i just got tired of it already... those crushes are just a waste of time and just a waste of space in my heart... know what i mean?! so, i decided to just have brandon boyd as my crush for now...at least he wouldnt hurt me... wahaha! i also have tons of guy friends, but none of them are really boyfriend materials...or at least i want to think they were cause as i have said...they are my friends...plus they are big pervs and they treat me as one of the boys for crying out loud! and im so friggin' sure that they see me as just the 'makulit' friend they have...the one they made fun of and the one they laugh with...yeah right...ehehehe... it's okay though... cause i can hang out with guys and be comfortable with them...

everything is okay in my life so far...i got good grades...nice family and non-BI friends... im still in school inspite of the high tuition...iam alive and kicking...i could really say "hey, im okay! im fine by myself!"....

but still...
could i ask....
where is my soulmate??!
just asking...okay!